My habit, in my meditation practice, is to journal about each session once completed. Here are a few highlights from February:
Feb. 4, 2015, 10:14 am : Twenty minute meditation without music – just silence accept for the background noise of life, happening around me. I purposed to focus on my breath by counting breaths, until the 20 minutes was up. I reached 30 before my mind shifted off counting breaths, to breathing into chakras – first, sahasrara, then ajna, then vishuddah, then manipura – and I either slipped into a shallow trance or a shallow sleep – which, I couldn’t discern – but in my soul – in my minds eye – I felt a slight poke in manipura, my solar plexus and ‘saw/perceived’ a woman move from in front of me, around to my left, and asked me if I wanted to talk to her. I snapped out of that state – and couldn’t get back there, though I did seem to slip in and out of semi consciousness. Relaxed now.
Feb. 6, 2015, 5: 44 pm: Focus meditation before a big meeting tonight. Help me remain mindful as we discuss future direction for a satellite campus
Con’t, 11:39 pm: After tonights meeting I ended the evening meditating to quiet my mind before sleep. My mind was amazingly calm (unusual for me after a meeting like the one I just came from). Now, sleep awaits.
Feb. 9, 2015, 09:31 pm: Twenty minutes of meditation in anticipation of visiting friends at hospital, whose extremely premature baby daughter might not survive the night. The focus of mind is preparatory for being with them, sitting with them in their emotions. May grace and peace prevail on them. (Update: the little girl was born weighing 14 oz. She didn’t make it, and died a few days later).
Feb. 14, 2015, 6:15 pm: A 20 minute meditation, listening to the birds chirp outside my open windows as I breathed. I could hear a robin, very close outside, as well as smaller birds singing back and forth much further away – as an occasional car passed on the street. A bit into the meditation, the birds fell silent. My stomach was hurting – feeling bloated from too much food – a reminder to eat less. I dozed but only for a few seconds – kept to my breath – the 2 minute bell sounded, then three bells, ending my time. As I opened my eyes, the birds began to sing once again.
Feb. 16, 2015, 1:49 pm: Active mind today during meditation – thinking about how powerful sex can be, seeing myself, in my minds eye lying naked in a woman’s embrace – laughing about how sleeping, eating and sex are the three pillars of an Ayurvedic life style – thinking about ISIS and barbarism – an active mind! I tried to scan my body – but instead, thoughts moved to watering plants, water rationing, and then on to how, so often in my life, I have wanted to write something profound or do some great thing – all this came up, today in meditation.
Feb. 18, 2015, 08:59 am: While meditating with my window open I was impressed with how natures sounds are abundant – usually the sound of birds singing and wind rustling, in the city – but how human activity and sounds quickly drown natures sounds out – cars accelerating down the street as some one is in a rush, the refuse truck loads garbage, water flowing from a faucet into the sink as someone washes veges, someone calling my name. Humanity in community creates combined noise, which drowns out nature and stifles peace – all the more reason to maintain spiritual practice.
I’ve had at least one session for 33 consecutive days. I’ve set my intention to meditate for 365 consecutive days, as I go deeper in this practice.